The fact that I have some disorder kinda scares me.
It could be worse.
But I suffer from onychophagia and dermatophagia, and compontents of OCD.
No one ever notices. I don’t want them to.
My mom finally wants to get me help and I think I am finally ready to get rid of this.
What can you replace with any plain greek yogurt while cooking?
Last day of freedom, well, not really freedom but last day of doing nothing and watching How I Met Your Mother all day long.
I celebrated my 20th birthday on Sunday, which also enables me to get a fresh start to my life. I had a chance to talk to my friend about my concerns with my life, body wise, and it felt good to talk it out.
I worry. I worry quite a bit. Mostly about life after college. I worry about what I am going to do after school and if I will have a job or not. I worry because of my major. But then again, everyone is worried. I just need to remember that everything will be okay. I need to trust God and know that He has it under control. I just need confidence.
It’s the second day of the new year, 2012.
I’ve already cleaned my room, de-cluttering it from the things that aren’t needed. This morning I was forced to get up super early, but I came home and I have watched How I Met Your Mother since.
I worked out for a while, running about 1 mile, with an interval of sprints and then biked for about 13 minutes. My chest has been hurting, I’m pretty sure it’s indigestion, but I am feeling better. I’ve been breathing evenly, trying to relax.
I had a pretty good lunch, an awesome veggie burger and some homemade sweet potato fries. I feel good. I feel a ton better. I am really working on feeling relaxed and in-control. But I also really need to remember to trust God.
Today I am making-over my life. I don’t have to totally renovate my life, because nothing is really wrong with me, but I do suffer from some anxiety issues. They are starting to affect me physically and I really want to feel better by the time I head back to school for next semester. This blog will just be for me to jot done some of my struggles and reflections of why I am anxious. Also, in addition, I am starting a new diet consisting of mainly natural foods. I have had digestive issues (partially I think because of my anxiety) and in order to get back to feeling great I have taken on the challenge of eating all-natural. This will be a journey, but I hope that writing will help me successfully follow through.
